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If something bad happened, some argument, some disagreement or any type of issue then play this song.

It had helped cheer me up, and it might help you.

I've seem too many bashing/pointing fingers/blaming/spiking recently within the people of Ircfiesta family, and fairly enough I am disappointed at it.

Sure it's not a bad thing to rant, talk your feelings out... but by doing so you are affecting the listener point of view regarding that person and (out of no reason for that listener) starting to hate that person because of what you said.

Looking at it from a 3rd person point of view, what is the difference of this and backstabbing your friends?


Worse of all the hatred had grown so much that it's at the level where people are doing stuff that harm the other person. Mentally and physically.

It's one thing to be angry with someone, but it's another thing to get it physical and with the rate of hatred that is going around the family someone might actually die due to another person in the family poisoning the food/drinks.

Perhaps the death cause started because one just wanted to rub him off a bit because he is irritating/annoying/irresponsible/hatred to that person, but do take a note that whatever you do or say in hatred/anger might do more than what you think it would do.


Let me give an example, the specific person who are being hated is being annoying(/you are angry at him for some reason) and you know that he can't eat peanut as he is allergic to it. So with all that hate and anger you spike his food with some peanuts thinking it would just give him some body irritation as he is allergic to it and passed the food to him. He ate it and then get an allergic reaction which block his breathing and DIE.

Notice how something small like making him get irritation might ended up in his death?


Now had you ever not been irritated by your siblings? I am sure we who have siblings had been irritated by them countless times. But in the end of it they are still our family no?

So are we not a family in Ircfiesta?

Does this picture even mean anything to you?



Rylands` made this family possible and tie all of us together, don't be the cause of it to break apart.

Oh and Rylands` thank you for inviting me to the channel it meant a lot to me, I've admit though that it's very heavy to see on how things are going on right now with the family but somehow everything will work out in the end.

なんくるないさ

Owner will be away from 14Dec to 18Dec, For the time being bear bear will take care of this place for him.



Rawr! Don't mess with it.

Made some anti-racism web poster because nobody seems to be trying, not even the government.

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I encourage for others to do the same, make posters of anti-racism and spread it around.

Pictures are taken from Stock.XCHNG and modified by me.

This is especially hard on me.

He was the one who introduce me to #comicfiesta which leads me into finding good friend and a person who I eventually fall in love with and for the first time loves me back.

Without him, I would had been be a different person now... probably mourning on a girl who is not even worth of my time, without him I would had not known the high level of trust from a community that I barely knew, without him I would had remain my past pathetic self.

Without him... I'll be alone now


I have met friends, found my love, began to smile again all because of his single act of inviting me to the irc channel and I will remember him always as a person who changed me.

Febuary 11, 2007. I still remember that day where he was sitting just outside of his burned house wiping the family photo album, it was the first time I had seen someone who could smile and looked forward into the future while saying "what to do, already burn mah..."

He who had lost so much from the burn... and yet he smile and look forward, that day I started to remember him as the strongest person I have met, In which I had countless time remember that smile and move forward in my life.

That smile was one of the thing that kept me going when I herd the news that I have to break up with Nao, that smile was on my mind when me and Nao breaking up while she left Penang, that smile was with me... when I found out that he had passed away.


Thank you Rylands` for that smile, it has changed me forever.

You have the power to change this, you have the power to make sure that this would not repeat again in the future.

Some might say it's not fair, some might say it's just sad. But you! you as the future parents, you can change this.

Let your child be with whoever they want to be, don't deny who they want to date by race nor religion.

Please change this so that newer generation don't have to face what me and Nao had to go through.


Please...

Edit: We broke up today.

I survived… for now…

Only a day has pass, and yet for some reason we are still alive… heat is definitely a factor for their movements… they have seem to march to the sunrise and are less active during sunset and during midnight we manage to get out of the office and drive to the nearest police station.

There was nothing left there… not even a single soul nor bodies, which could only mean that the only force with weapon to protect us… are no longer ours.

The only thing that any of us can think of is… to get out of the island.

 

Now if I coul

This might be my last post… might be...

Within minutes, they are everywhere and they kept on spreading… there were nothing on the news, nobody that alerts us about it. It came like the tsunami, without warning… without people noticing it until it was too late.

Phone lines are working, but nobody is picking it up; not even the police… this is when we finally realize that we are alone in this.

Unlike other buildings, our office was equipped with a shutter lock as prevention against fire from spreading to another level and that is what kept us surviving… for now at least.

 

I am not sure on what they are doing, nor what do they want from us… for now they seems to be killing and reviving people around us as one of their own.

Being in a glass based building, we are able to see their movements clearly… and it is clear to us that they are not stopping. The shutter lock may keep them out for now… but the glasses on our building might not.

I don’t know what else to say, we need help here and yet nobody is answering us nor care about us… it does sound like a thriller movie but this is real… too real...

Colleague is planning to crack through the shutter and run towards his car… I am not sure on how this would go as they are all around us but it might be our last hope to get help.

 

I am not sure what is going on in other areas, but if you are reading this… just keep this in mind when you see them you will notice something is wrong with them, they walk in groups and like groups of sober people… don’t be fooled on how they move, they leap and bite whatever they can reach. Run and hide in a cold closed area as heat attracts them even more.

 

Best of luck and trust me we all need luck right now.

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I am actually very stressed out, but being ignorant helps and Nao keeps me sane so I'll be fine.

Now to fix the pimple outbreak and massage my own shoulder, and then face it one by one(on my face).

Yes this is a rant and I don't rant much.

It was 6am in the morning, I was standing in the dark waiting for her to walk through that very corridor and embrace me in her arms.

There were glint of light from the stall beside me, and in nervousness I turn around and starred at the corridor. There were people walking... I clench my fist and whispered to myself "this is it... she should be here...."

She was walking and waving at me as I wave at her and waited for her to get close to me, she hugged shereen and then catches her breath and then embrace me in her arms and on that exact moment in time...

Her feelings overflow into my heart as mine overflow into hers.



We never let go of each other after that...

Nao, anata wo aishiteimasu

Repetitions of meaningless chores, insignificant faces, untied memories... living in a loop following the notations of life...

rotting in time.



Looking backwards, there were nothing about me... looking forward there are nothing for me. Nothing that excites me, nothing to appeals me. Simply walking without a destination... without a purpose... without a...

As seconds by seconds the clock ticks... and by each mere seconds I waste... a sap of life is taken from me.


I am neither sad or happy... I am just



empty.

Where had I been, where am I going?

I do not have an answer.

But what I do know is, I am here now... and you are beside me



in liminality...